Limerence

Simply hearing your name

Throws me down a spiral

And it takes me months to climb my way back to light.

You are my heaven and my hell.

I couldn’t be me without you,

And I can’t be me with you

For I disappear into your blues

And I’m happily lost in your oblivion.

Delusional and in love,

The thought of you alone lifts my heart to great heights

Only to crash to the reality that we don’t exist

But in my imagination. 

So - do I keep this fantasy for my sanity

Or do I let it go and crush my heart forever?

Either way, it sounds like madness.